I am a BAD writer

From how to make a lemonade in fifth grade (First, Second, Third, Finally) to an analytical paper on Lord of the Flies during my high school years (finding my thesis statement), my writing has been garbage. Writing just wasn’t for me. As a matter of fact, I detested writing. I did well in my English and literature classes, but they were so dreadful. Young me would have never foreseen this day where I sit and write for fun!

You see, I never considered myself a writer. More than that, I considered myself a BAD writer because it felt as if everyone around me was better at it; I didn’t have the skill. In result, writing was terrifying because I didn’t believe in myself.

I was fortunate to attend pretty elite schools for middle and high school, but before that, I was simply the new fourth grader; The immigrant kid at my neighborhood elementary school that didn’t speak English. Thus, the drastic jump from a low performing elementary school to the top of the line private schools was definitely hard at first.  I grew accustomed to being surrounded by wealthy, brilliant kids who inhabited the cloisters, but at times it was overwhelming. Mostly, in the writing labs. It doesn’t come as a surprise since I learned the English language at the age of ten and lacked the reading and writing stamina in my early education stages.

Nowadays, I still don’t consider myself a writer. I just feel the urge to express myself and words come. I enjoy doing it. Writing soothes my inner gabbiness. It enables that mumble-jumbo of noise inside of me and gives it a voice.  So, I write. I write to escape from my own incarceration, perhaps? Although writing is no longer about comparison and grades, I still have the motivation for growth. I’m no longer trying to compete with anyone or measure my work against anyone else’s standards. Instead, I am working towards setting my creativity free in a manner that inspires other to do the same.

I have come to the conclusion that I am a BAD WRITER because writing is not about being a good writer. It is about writing from the heart and filling those blank pages with ideas that matter to me and subjects that fulfill me. I should focus on typing my emotions away because only then is when excellent writing happens. When we write with passion, we don’t settle for good writing. I am not saying that, in order to create good content, we should feel mediocre, but most times complacency kills success.

Yes, I was a bad writer; I am a bad writer; I will always be a bad writer, but I am okay with that because by being a “bad writer” it pushes me to create great work. 

Thanks for reading,

Gabby Salazar

29 Comments

    1. You’re so kind Baffledmum!

      I used to think I was a bad writer for the wrong reasons, but now, I am happy to say that I am a bad writer because that motivates me to always improve. In order to improve, I have to write with passion. So, feeling like a bad writer is a good thing to encourage me to strive for more.

      I totally agree with you on that. Anyone can be a writer! It took me a long time to see that… that’s why I enjoy writing so much 🙂

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  1. I guess you’re a writer who doesn’t like to write. You have the knowledge required to write and you don’t appreciate it.
    I’m exactly the contrary , i don’t have the skill but i write whatever pops into my mind

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    1. Thanks for stopping by! Well, I used to not like writing. Now, I love it. 🙂

      Never stop. Keep on writing! I wish this realization came to me sooner. I was afraid to write because I thought I was not good at it, but I should have had your exact mentality because skill comes with practice, and writing is not about being perfect. It is about expression and creativity. So, applaud you for that Novus! 🙂

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  2. I think that you write very well indeed (especially so for someone who didn’t begin to learn English until the age of ten!). I am not surprised that you did not enjoy writing at school, but how much better you must feel now to persevered to such an extent that you now write for pleasure! Congratulations 🙂 🙂

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  3. I loved this post!! You are a great writer according to me because I could see you in your words. The journey to writing from your heart is not always easy. Sometimes it takes courage. I am so happy you love writing now. Keep up the good work. God bless! 🙂

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  4. It not been much time that I started following you but from the blogs I read here were wonderful. If the way you wrote is a bad writer then I better become ‘BAD’ writer myself.😘😘

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  5. You’re so sweet! Let’s be BAD writers together 🙂

    It has been a long journey for me and writing. I love it now, but I want to always leave room for growth. In this case, being BAD is a good thing because it pushes me to achieve more and create better work. Never be complacent ❤

    Hope you are having a wonderful day lovely. Thanks for visiting and keep coming back!

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